Truth / Addiction
-TS Bradshaw
I have an addictive personality (truth).
I think about this a lot. I’ve made lists before. I’m addicted to:
Weed, sex, nicotine, Grindr, attention, caffeine…to name a few.
What habits and routines am I trying to change?
I say I want to be less addicted to weed.
I didn’t smoke (weed) today (yet) though I am ready to go to the dispensary after this. Premeditated.
How much time did I spend on Grindr and the other stupid little apps today?
I’m addicted to The Chase.
How many times have I fished for an invite just to back out once I got that little stroke of validation?
Why is my addiction to The Chase so focused on emotionally unavailable men? I want their attention more than most things. He told me he’s sad and doesn’t want to talk and how badly I just want to say let’s be sad together.
Let’s be sad together.
Where is my self-respect and self-worth? Does it always have to be at odds with my addiction to the attention of emotionally unavailable men?


Ugh. I have the same feels. Well spoken.
Let’s be sad together!!!!